Thursday, November 1, 2018
Hear My Heart
It's been dark, Friends. I'm not going to lie. This chemo thing is getting a little bit tougher every time. The cumulative effects of the meds are taking a toll on this girl's body. But, it's also doing it's job. And, the good news is.....the good news always is, Jesus. He's alive and working hard on my behalf. He's working out my healing. He's working out things on your behalf too! Whatever your battle is, He's fighting it. Let go. Be still.
So easy, right? Wrong. As my body becomes weaker, it seems like Satan just wants to play. I'm weary of not feeling well. Comparing myself to that other gal who seems to be enduring her chemo so much better. Crabby, hungry, unable to eat. Worried. Tired. So many lies and taunts from the one who Loses. Every. Time!! Consistent with my nature, I put up a brave face and wear myself down. I let it catch up. I give in to the taunts. But only for a moment.
God rescues me even from this. He knows me so well, He knows you the same--Psalm 139:1-18